This will change your life

2007-04-05T10:59:00.000-07:00

This sits on my desk. Cute huh.
Its the month of may, at least on my calendar.
Below it lists the weeks that I am in Mexico....highlighted in blue.
There is so much blue.
I can't wait.

Guess I should get back to work.....i am feeling quite unmotivated.
Im designing cancer fundraiser posters right now. Here's one that I've made up so far.

I think I might do some easter egg painting this weekend. Anyone want to join me?

the big ripper

2007-02-25T21:28:00.000-08:00

I boast my hubbies skills as a "flatuent" artist......hence the title.
I will not lie, it is quite impressive the stench that he can produce.....but I don't appreciate it when he makes me smell them....
He also likes to do what he calls "hot boxing" it. Like right now, he's somehow convinced himself that trapping that putrid air under the blankets and breathing it in is a good idea.....
and now he's looking at me with innocent eyes, like his nasty farts don't matter.....ah shucks, he's just too darn cute. Besides, how many people give a quick "oh" after every fart, thats just adorable. I will put up with tearing eyes for just one hug. Either that, or never feed him riblets and asparagus again.....(the dinner was amazing kitchens!!! loved it!)

And the anonymous pictures below have a story, I was just so extatic I forgot to right it. This is the future home of Mr. and Mrs. Wiens, conviently located downtown. It's 750 square feet, which means we have to have sex 750 times to cover every square foot of the house. yaya!!!

Peace out everyone

(aren't you all glad I started posting again?)

2007-02-23T09:25:00.000-08:00

bridesmaids

2007-02-13T15:39:00.000-08:00

hello everyone.
So i realize that its been a while since I last wrote in here. I really don't know why, I just don't.
But now, the occasion calls for it.
Bridesmaid dresses....
yes, I may have bought some before, but i think i've changed my mind. I have a few different options, and I want everyones (especially you bridesmaids), opionions. Before I went with a deep teal blue color, however, I think im aiming towards more subtle colors now. I like either a rose color or beige.
Anyway, here are a few dresses I came across, let me know what you think.

Dress #1

Dress #2

Dress #3

wedding bells

2006-09-23T07:01:00.000-07:00

the smell of flowers is almost overwelming, and i havent' even gone outside yet. NOW i understand the tourists allegiance to the floral print shirt. No one can get away with a floral print shirt and not look tacky, but for some strange reason, there is this annoying lure about them, I almost feel obligated.......not today, I've got alot of planning to do. Playing "typical tourist" can come later.

Aloha! hehe. Its fun to say that and feel authentic. I leave to maui today to plan me and jasons wedding!!!! Just me and my mom, mai tais, and venues.
And just so you all have a taste of the possibilities.....

the sheraton hotel

Nice hey!

Im taking along a video camera, so for those of you who are coming to this, come over to Jasons house on thursday nite!

2006-07-30T20:54:00.000-07:00

i miss you jason.....

oreo cookies

2006-07-26T21:07:00.000-07:00

i made them tonite

and you know what else

there awesome!!!!

which leads to only one thing

me....

being awesome

but thats obvious

tell you what

ill keep a few around

.....cookies that is

(the awesome cookies

that I made

because im awesome)

just for you

to arouse your tastebuds.

whats that?

IM BIGHEADED?!!!!!

thats it!!!

NO COOKIE FOR YOU!!!!

HA!

theres no talking yourself out of this one now

im on to your shinanigins

I already ate them all anyways

what?!!! now your calling me FAT?!!!!!

eat this !%^&*#

(stay tuned)

whoa.....thats deep

2006-07-23T18:13:00.000-07:00

Intentional indifference....a viscious cycle of success succombing to curioiusity. I've got a good job, a great job in fact. Why then, would I start clouding my mind with thoughts of extreme change so prematurely? And now an even bigger question....why won't i let it? Security, thats why. I love how William Shedd puts it. "A ship is safe in harbor, but that’s not what ships are for. " I remember when i was little, being absolutely terrified of the dark. I always found it mind-boggling how a cute little teddy bear can morph into a gargantuent, teeth-baring, beast. But no matter how scared i would get, there was something about hiding underneath my blankets that made everything safe. Cause really, what fearism creature would DARE pull back the covers....
Thats how I often feel now. Secure in my safe haven, underneath my blankets. Overtime it becomes intoxicating, and im left feeling uncomfortable and alone. All i have to do is pull back the covers and take in a deep breath of new fresh air. But why is this such a difficult thing to do? Seeing the situation, in every sense of it, it seems silly not to pull back the covers. But then, if you do, your left staring into a dark abiss, almost more terrifying than exciting.
You can call me a wimp. But i like to think of myself as a risk taker. I've done my fair share of spontaneous leaps of faith. But there are times when i seriously have to question my motives. Is there such a thing as the right time when it come to indecisive career planning? And where do you draw the line between selfish and selfless ambition, when material gain holds no merit? I understand how small of a pothole this is in my life, but i really don't want to get stuck in it. Do i go along for the ride, which is working for me right now, or do i get off and go thrill seeking? Now im getting carried away in metaphors, and probably making little or no sense at all. And being undeniably cheesy in every way, i know. But when i get down to the bare essentials, its a habit.
Perhaps this is a selfish persuit of something non-existant. Like high school relationships. The first boy you ever date always seems to be a great one. Perfect in every way. But you haven't experienced anything different. Maybe what you think is great for you now is merely scraping the surface of what greatness really is. Then you dump him, date another guy, and realize that the first was so much better. Like the "the grass is greener on the other side" syndrome. I always figured this statement to be selfish.....until it applies to you. And now it would seem im a hypocrite.
Don't jump to conclusions now, my discrepincy is not rooted in relationships. Im quite twitterpaited over my man Jay.
I just feel that life is all about searching for purpose. And just when we find it, when we utilize it for all its worth, it keeps going, its annoying that way, and quite often a tiresome persuit of fufillment. (I want to use the word fullfillment lightly because many aspects of life can account for such a thing). The truth is, we will always persue purpose. It can take on many forms. And its great when we attain it, and use it the way God intended. But wait, im not done with you yet. Get out of your comfort zone.....because i've got something else up my sleeve.
Just like hide and seek. You search everywhere for your goal, to find what you seek. And once you find it, you feel so accomplished. Until the game starts again. And now im back to where i started

counting

1....2.....3......4....

more vancouver ferry pics

2006-07-07T09:56:00.000-07:00

kristy was having a good time......really

oh my booze hound ;)

i don't think there was one picture of me NOT laughing

yay independant Canada!!

2006-07-06T17:19:00.000-07:00

so i heard the storm warnings
wasnt totally sure what to expect
but hey
I have an umbrella, that will suffice
.....
ERR WRONG!!!!!

now i wasn't sure what was worse, walking through massive streams of water that splashed up dirt whenever cars drove by, or being belted with marble sized hail. (my umbrella tore after 10 minutes)

that umbrella was brand new too......

my feet hurt (never run in cowboy boots)

the predatory wasp of the Palisades is out to get us!!

2006-07-03T17:33:00.000-07:00

update
does anybody want to watch "Whats Eating Gilbert Grape" with me tonite? I have tostitos :)

Listen.
hear that?
that is the sound of nothing. My roomate and boyfriend have gone hiatus, and besides the relentless sun blistering my skin, im all alone with the humming of our gargantuant fan. I may be making it out to be more pathetic than it actually is, seeing as I spent my long weekend in VANCOUVER partying on a ferry!! That is a hard act to follow. But I'm afraid to say that I thoroughly enjoyed my time spent in that vegetated wonderland, with its half-million dollar condos and over-the-top transvestites. I say afraid because my mind has started to sway towards settling in that city by the ocean. I used to think my devotion to calgary was not easily moved, but after seeing the excitment in Jason's eyes when we first spoke of settling there, made me change my mind. It's entire atmosphere is what feels like home to me. Im an artsy fart, classical music buff, and the opportunities for me to persue design on the coast is endless. And Jason's a born-and-raised BC boy, although after spending most of his life in Hickville, that perception of him has probably changed. A few of you are probably excited at the thought....Mike & Ashley or Kristy & Ryan....but don't think I haven't thought about those of you who would still be back at home......Ashley & Kevin, Lisa & Chris, Jason & Erin (although you two are determined to make root in Lethbridge). So im left to ponder, with my fan-a-blazin, and the sun-a-bakin, typing away the time tell I fall asleep and ready myself for another work week. I expect another sleepless night, at least there's no crows nest outside my window.....

a bunch of asian ladies had a crush on jason while we were on the ferry, so they all took pictures of him. I thought it was great seeing jay blush. Here is one with both of us.

2006-06-28T16:53:00.000-07:00

bad news folks
turns out i can't come to woodbury anymore....:( !!!!!!
the bosses are out of town the same week as the trip, and seeing as I'm one of the only ones that knows how to do everything at little rock (im not being bigheaded, i seriously am the only one), I need to stay back and hold the fort.
i hope you guys have a blast though!!!
and someone can use my inflateable STARFISH to bask in the glorious sun with! its large, yellow, and realistic.....it says so on the box.
im going to go sweat all over the place now!
Im totally a winter child. I just want to get back to the hill. Its so much easier to dress up warmly than to shed off the clothes.

you know what else sucks? having two mosquito bites on your foot! that annoying ich that pulses inside your shoe! its annoying!!! There isn't mosquitos in winter

Oh, and for all you guys who demand my site be changed....you should be thanking me for providing you all with a winter escape!!!!
thats right.
thanking me!

the campgound of blinding....light?

2006-06-25T21:15:00.000-07:00

yay folks, im back from the wilderness.
My hair is greasy, my clothes smell like campfire, and my freezer is stocked with leftover tofu dogs and veggie burgers. I wish weekends lasted longer than two days. Who decided that weekends should only be two days of the week anyway. Society could easily maintain economic stability on a 4 day work week. Sure you would have to cut corners here and there, but pay people enough to compensate for that extra day, it can happen.....in a perfect world....
I have yet again, been adorned with birthday blessings from my parents. As it stands, I am well on my way to being prepared to survive the wilderness for at least a few years. I've recently been equiped with a fishing rod, tackle & bait, licence, cooler, sleeping bags, and a sandwich cooker (for the campfire). I felt bad for putting Jason to shame in this area, but he has easily matched me (some may even say out-do me) for his purchase of the "theatre spotlight". This flashlight brings truth to the phrase "bigger is better". Not only can you blind your fellow neighbour, or flag down the Calgary Police Chopper (don't ask), but it makes for a great conversation starter.
"HOLY SMOKES, you could light a match with that thing"
"how bright is that"
"15 MILLION CANDLE POWER"
men in unison "whoa!!!!"

Theres no beating that.

So after an eventful camping trip to Beauveai Lake, the campground with two suns, I headed down to Lethbridge to meet up with jason at his parents house. So I know most of you have stories of how you've walked in on Walter Weins going to the washroom, or perhaps walking in his tighty whities, but hear me now......I beat you all!
I walk into their house and i hear the shower going. I assume its Jason, getting all nice and ready to see me (I assume to much i know ;) ). I continue unpacking my belongings from my parents car when i hear the shower stop. I approach the bathroom door, ready to knock, and the door swings open.............so it wasn't Jay. Fortunatly enough Walter had a towel covering "parts" of him, but I saw definite cheek action.....
Theres something not right about the fact that I've seen more of Jason's ol man than I have seen of Jay.
....Im never going to live this down.

So its technically my birthday tomarrow. Most of my day will involve me working, but thats ok, 22 won't feel much different from 21. Just another day of the week. It never really kicks in tell way after the fact.

I leave to Vancouver for the long weekend too!!!! I get to harass my sister for 3 days. Im starting to go through withdrawal, im sure Jason experiences the blunt end of that. hehe. Im excited for the Canada day dance and party boat!!!!! Im ready to bust-a-moove. Feel it? Feel it?!!!!! "Now dip down waaaaay low"

Thanks for the wine erin!!!! It would have been great to accompany it with cheese and pickles.....but my body and tastebuds are constantly at war. So far my bodies winning......damn!!

My once beautifully pedicured feet are now a massacre of mud, blisters, and bug bites, with nicely painted toenails. Kind of like a hostile, abstract, picasso painting....messy with an underlying beauty.......I really don't like feet.....or picasso for that matter......im definitly a Monet or Van Gogh.

I really need sleep. My brain is functioning quite sporatically. I think it needs to shut down before it crashes........
anyone guess what i am? two letters.....P and C.
MACS RULE!!!!

the end

whats the dilly. fer rilly... mo nilly shirilly

2006-06-21T18:56:00.000-07:00

Its my birthday in 5 days!!!!
WAT UP 5 DAYS!!!!
Work today was fun
"Thats the perfect shade of dark blue dark blue"
"isn't it though?"
"yes, it really is"
"ya....."
"......."
"maybe it should be red"
"ya, red is nice"

I gave myself a pedicure tonite. GLORIOUS CLEAN FEET..you know what they say..a clean foot creates a soft heart......

now everyone go buy me presents

cheers

2006-06-19T17:05:00.000-07:00

guess what guys!!!
i got my own desk today. not just a little guy, I mean the full wrap around kind, and a new LCD moniter (i think to tame my MAC urges temporarily). I also have my own phone so the secrectary can page me. I finally feel settled. We have a girl coming in tomarrow to do some training for a day (just to see if she likes it). I love my work!!!!! LOVE!

its my birthday on the weekend. i would celebrate with you all's, but Im goin CAMPIN!!!! busting out all my camping gear (yes, i even have a coleman stove), and becoming one with nature. My recent gut attack has left me pretty handicapped towards anything involving fat, red meat, poultry, cheese, butter, milk, ICE CREAM, egg yolks, anything deepfried or skillet fried in fat, oils, mayonnaise, salad dressings, CHOCOLATE, olives, nuts, donuts, pastries, potato chips (unless baked), coffee, caffeine, alcohol, carbonation, artificial sweeteners, artificial fats, MSG, and im sad to say thats just skimming the surface of what i all can't eat. Its a good thing i like seafood or I would be pretty screwed. So my week is going to involve baking cinammon-zuccini bread, seafood pastas, and home made salsas. Don't feel bad for me though, Im actually enjoying this diet, other than the shot of aloe vera juice that i have to take every morning.....you can feel bad for me for that.

life on the c-train (cattle train)

2006-06-13T22:24:00.000-07:00

"You smell something?!!!!"
"totally"
"it smells like subway!!!"
"it smells like rotting children!!!!!"

......the wise words of our emofied culture

So I saw an eyepatch on the ground when i was walking home today. It was disgustingly intriguing. Don't worry, I didn't pick it up...but I won't lie, a part of me wanted to put it on and pose as a pirate.

there's peas in my fudge

2006-06-10T09:15:00.000-07:00

I remember there being times when i wanted to give up on Graphic Design. The combination of my inner perfectionist and lack of direction really drove me crazy. But now Im so glad I pressed on and endured countless hours of instruction and exams to end up with a tremendous job. Im hired on as a full time graphic designer!!!! This week i've taken over the other graphic designer at little rock while she is gone on holidays. I've really surprised myself. Normally an assignment that takes me 2 weeks to prepare takes me 2 hours. I've designed countless posters, brochures, cd's, and tradeshow booths, and its only been a week. My boss's have been so impressed with my work, minus a stupid typo error on my first job.....good thing it was a donation.....idiot!!! haha. They had a good laugh. My life is a joke sometimes. He is also getting new MAC COMPUTERS for us designers to work on. MAC COMPUTERS........MAC COMPUTERS!! i like those.
anyways, I just want to thank all of you who have encouraged me, whether it was by praise or criticism, I take them both in stride.
And now im craving some deer sausage that Rodd Laing made one time. Man, I'd be so screwed if I ever fully made the connection between adorable Bambi and delicious venison. Hey, Subconscious, keep up the good work.

2006-06-02T16:34:00.000-07:00

you know what really sucks?
when you and your boyfriend plan a fun camping trip to kananaskis and the built up excitment gets you through your workday and then you plan all the different places you will go and rush home after work to meet up with him and get in his car and start gushing out all the plans you made and........."were not going".
the next two weeks at my work are going to be so insane. i have to take over for the graphic designer while she's gone on holidays, finish a hugely retarded job for a client that im dreading, and be trained to cover the csr manager while she's on holidays. I really need a break....and not just the stay at home and do nothing one, because that makes me feel more useless than relaxing. i wanted to sleep in my rad tent with the smell of pine and campfire in my hair, with a belly full of smokies and smores, and the sounds of a crackling fire and chirping squirrels, and all with a beer in hand.

if anyone wants to go camping with me now, let me know, cause I would much rather do that then spend my time doing nothing here in c-town.

2006-05-22T10:42:00.000-07:00

I find parents these days have grown soft towards disciplining their children. Society portrays spanking as irrational abuse.....i call it beating the brat out of you. Im not sure how the rest of you guys feel about this issue, but i strongly believe that some parents nowadays are promoting little hell-raisers and not exposing them to the consequences of their actions. I understand that everyone wants to be "friends" with there kids, but you are a parent first and foremost. You will be friends with your kids....when there 20, but until then, you feed them, love them, and show them whose boss. I bring this topic up because yesterday me and Jason went golfing at a par3. We paired up with this one kid and his divorced dad, and we knew from the getgo that it was going to be interesting. Jason goes out to shake the kids hand, who was probably about 12 or 13, and the kid just looked at jay disgusted without shaking his hand. Im standing there like...."its called a handshake :|". So then we are tee'n off later down the course and this kid nails the ball towards us, the dad trys to stop it, recieves the blut end of the impact on his finger, and deflects it towards me and nails me in the leg. The father looks horrified, makes sure im ok as his finger has a huge imprint on it, and proceeds to say nothing to his kid. The kid snickers a little, and proceeds to comment some quip remark to his dad about it being his second time today being hit by the ball. THEN, later on, we come across a golf club cover. The kid picks it up and starts shouting at the players next to us who are trying to tee off "HEY, HEY PEOPLE, IS THIS YOUR SOCK!!!!! HEY!" ya...you don't do that in golf....even i know that. his dad just sits there sheepishly.
now you all might think im being a bit heartless on this issue, but if you think back to the time your parents busted out the wooden spoons or leather belts.....you know it made you never want to do anything bad again.
Now im not promoting child abuse by any means. No parent should abuse their rights as adults on helpless children. Im not sure why im going so gung-ho on this issue, but i feel its getting worse and worse as the years progress.
there's my two cents

Giant sticker fun

2006-05-16T16:17:00.000-07:00

so after half-expecting my weekend to involve rest, mom love, and waking up to roosters in picture butte, I end up baking my back mini-golfing (and beating jay I might add), and flying through a wall of tires go-carting. I must say, burnin rubber with jays dad was a great bonding experience. I even got to ride his motorbike, and now I have this annoying itch to ride again. Brings me back to days on the farm bootin around on my little red honda 50.

a little fyi, if anyone wants to hang out right now, I will be melted into a puddle in the middle of my bedroom floor, ok? Oh summer nights.....where you sleep with the windows open, fans a-blazin, and lying on-top of your blankets with nothin but your skibbies on....sometimes not even.

You know what else spring is good for? GARAGE SALES!!!!! I landed myself a sweet pair of keds for $2, which i didn't even pay for, so from my point of view, they were free ;). Me and jay also came across a rare treasure.....a Dick Tracy Sticker book. Remember those old books you used to get with pages of stickers you could punch out, and then you place them on the pages corresponding to them? If you haven't heard of them before, maybe you should get out from that rock your living in.

Yes, jay is on his way with slurpees and chocolate.....he really is perfect. I hope maybe one day soon the chocolate will turn silver and shiny and diamondy and......non-edible.....:)

Oh, I special ordered the TV serious Dinasours. Envy me

reason #43523 why guys are hopelessly flawed

2006-05-12T21:07:00.000-07:00

you know whats retarded
guys who think they have balls to shout out cat calls towards a girl while wizzing by in their car at 60km/hr.

"...eeeeeeeOWwwww...."

she stands there unsure of whether it was a guy she heard or a bad muffler

his friends probably have a good laugh, throw arounda a few high fives and say "yo man, she totally winked at you".....

LAME!

2006-05-08T17:49:00.000-07:00

you guys....i have won the lottery.....twice! at least thats what my new job feels like.
had a meeting today after work. it was sooo fun. we ordered pizza, drank beer, and discussed little rocks business ventures and propositions. I am now officially the front end production supervisor. I do alot of digitizing, which for all you designers out there, is somewhat like using the pen tool. I have my own little office space too. Im now fully trained in fedex, so if you guys need anything sent nationwide, I can hook you up. I get some fancy new duds, health and dental benefits, holiday pay, weekends free, all statutory holidays free, as well as the stampede weekend, young and rad work buddies, and raises every three months. This company is expanding dramatically, so its going to be good to start at the beginning. They already have this sweet building coming up in 2008 where we get an entire floor dedicated to design and print. The boss loves me, and has trained me in so much stuff that only I know. A few people from my class have called or emailed there to apply for a job but unfortunatly we are not hiring at the moment. To late suckas!!!!! bwahaha. jk. I did put in a good word for you....
Now i have to help MC a silent auction at some elite golf course in calgary. Little Rock is heading it up, and i have to mingle with the clients, smile pretty, and sell some random items for breast cancer awareness. If anyone wishes to take part in this event, I have tickets to sell. Its $60, but that gets you supper, a dance, an auction, a dj from revolution, and a donation to a great cause. Please come, I need to see some familiar faces in the crowd........theres going to be a bar....

and yes ashley, I will update the layout of my blog. soon it shall be a tropical oasis....

2006-05-01T23:18:00.000-07:00

i bet you all are wondering how my job has been going, am i right? Well its going great. I had to quickly adapt to the workplace there, seeing as 3 people called in sick on my second day of work. So with no prior training, I had to take on the entire front desk, customer service, print, bindery and sales. Go me! Answering phone calls, making phone calls, talking to clients, creating reports, and printer maintanence is just skimming the surface of what my job entails. Overwhelming definitly, but i feed off of the pressure. I love the drive that accompanies a busy work day. I feel so accomplished when my day is finally over. My dilemma now lies in my jaded but promising future. Little rock is overflowing with potential to become a large print manufacturer. Graphic design is in the works, but at the time is financially unavailable. My aspirations lie in the graphic design arena, but it may take much longer than was expected to make it happen. So, do i stay with Little Rock where i will one day eventually become a graphic designer, or do I look at other propositions in Calgary? I love Little Rock, and all the staff that works there. So, if hypothetically speaking, I were to find another job that would offer graphic design, should i take it? or wait until i WILL become a graphic designer at Little Rock. errrg. Or do i persue my schooling in the fall, which was my original intent prior to being hired? I wish I were one of those people with only one dream and one clear path, but I can't force my heart to settle on one career. I want to do so many things with my life.

On a different note, Jason is gone for two weeks.... :(. I MISS YOU ZERBIT!!!!!!

schooools... out for the summer!!

2006-04-24T21:49:00.000-07:00

guess what you guys?!!!

school is OUT!!! ive officially finished school today. isn't it wonderful?!!! yes, yes it is.
Finals were a breeze, my brain was functioning on all four cylinders today. I like when that happens. When you can just remember everything.
So I did a little jig and sang along with Meredith Brooks "im a bitch" (sorry mom). Its crazy how I still remember the song order for Now3.
So i start my new job tomarrow....kinda wish i had a little break between finals and work, but hey, thats life. Im a bit nervous, but excited to start a career job. And totally grateful for how it fell right on my lap. Im still waiting for my run in with bad luck....seriously, ive gone to far now without it.

And ashley, I laughed with myself today just thinking about our made up phrases with your kitchen magnets. I really need to invest in some of my own. It helps brings out the dirty side in all of us...

"pinch and whip my tender green pickle"
"nibbling her olives makes his fat bean ripe".

2006-04-11T15:04:00.000-07:00

halleluiah!!!

You all are looking at a career woman now!! I apparently made a great impression today during my interview because im exactly what they are looking for.

I have a job!!!!! with Little Rock!!! they are a family run business in downtown calgary with around 11 employees, most of which are my age, which is RAD!! They are expanding dramatically and will be in need of graphic designers shortly. They will be offering me first dibs on the position!!!! can this get any sweeter?!!
I start as soon as finals are over. The pay is saweeet!! and i get a raise every three months. 8-5 monday to friday which means i have my weekends freeeeeee!!!
seriously, this is tremendous!!!!!

....so i had a dream last night that i was being chased by a t-rex
it was scary..

and jay tried licking my eyeball tonite....i threatened to kick him in the balls!
i compromised however, and spared him his manhood, but crushed his ketchup chips to smithereens!!!!!
he then proceeded to chin rub my eye.....where then i hocked up a loogee onto his face!!!
.....then kicked him in the balls!!!

i will end you!!

do your ears hang low?

2006-04-10T14:58:00.000-07:00

ive had that scouts song stuck in my head since i first woke up this morning. Not even joking. My alarm went off....and there it was....."do your ears hang low, do they wobble to and fro...."
I figured this peculiar song has made its way into my head because of recent personal trauma. My ears have blown up like dumbo the past few days, because APPARENTLY im allergic to coconut earings. So my ears are, in a way, hanging low, and God has decided to make light of the situation. It also gave me an excuse to buy bandaids.....BATMAN BANDAIDS!!!! ya i did.
So ive been taking benadryl allergy medicine to deflate these low hangin ears of mine. Does that stuff ever hit hard!! Yes, i am tiny, i know. so i guess this sort of thing is to be expected. Its just that in a matter of minutes after taking that stuff...BAM!!! you could push me off a couch without even a flinch.......thats also a figure of speech, so don't try anything funny weenz!!!
So, apart from my abnormalities, my weekend has been tremendously, stupendously, exuberantly......nice. My move was a success!! my ex-landlord is a cheapass!!! and ive discovered how nice it was to unload alot of stress on a 60 year old man. haha!!! that may have sounded bad, but this man has no integrety. Im biting my tongue now, seeing as i can't afford to send him to court, but ERRRRR!!!!! I hope he slips on a banana and breaks a hip.......ok im done.
On the bright side, our new house is excellent. We have a gas lit fireplace that is so relaxing. Lying on the couch and studying while listening to a crackling fire is way better than scattering all my papers across my bedroom floor. Although that technique has got me into university and college.....twice.
Sunday mornings, I get to listen to old church bells ringing. Which i guess is nice now....but in time, I don't know how much more amazing grace i can take.
I also spent this weekend with some beautiful people at the calgary zoo!!! my birthday destination since i was in grade 2.....not even joking, ask my mom. Im sure the others who came with will be rantin and ravin about the weekend on blogger too. So i will save the details for them. All i want to say is that, somehow, weenz managed to turn an innocent family trip to the zoo, into an animal porno. Bear booty coming to a blogger near you.
So in conclusion, my interview is tomarrow, i hope my ears shrink soon, and grape suckers are way better than lemon.....

do YOUR ears hang low?

oh, and one more thing. Due to confusion and finances, me and ashley are using our cell phones for a "home line". so if any of yoooous wants to call me up, here are my digits. Im making it like a puzzle.....i like puzzles
now you can be your very own sherlock holmes

&!)-!)!$

Ok ok, one more thing. for all of you with a mac computer (maybe PC too, i haven't tried yet), turn off your light and shine your mouse up against the wall. It makes a HIPPO FACE!!!
seriously....try it

2006-04-06T13:55:00.000-07:00

yessss!!!
i got an interview for a CSR position
hourly wage + commission
this is so awesome. the only kicker is im going back to school in the fall to take administrative managment, so hopefully that won't interfere with anything....

yayaya

ya

2006-03-28T10:57:00.000-08:00

i feel like death

remember, remember, the fifth of november

2006-03-18T23:02:00.000-08:00

I got to see "V for Vendetta" today. Terrific movie. A must see for all of you who crave movies with substance. Great dialogue, cryptic love story, political controversy, and gore. What more could you ask for? It also proves that girls dig men of mystery. I totally have a secret crush on the somewhat crazy agitator "V". His mission is to single-handedly destroy the fascist government by blowing up parliment. Im pretty sure it blossomed when he started playing Tchaikovsky during his first attack.
Just watch it. And you'll see why this masked man is so captivating. He embodies everyones desire for freedom and identity.

Oh, and i got a free donut today from krispy kreme. And not just the one that they give you in the line. Like, the one I was supposed to buy but didn't because i got it for...a-fe-reeeeee!!! Jay decided that he needs to take me with him everywhere. Its kinda crazy how much stuff i get for free.... Now if only this luck could work on traffic lights. I am officially jinxed when it comes to red lights. I hit them all.....every....freakin....one. And not just for a few seconds..oh no. Im there for the long haul, arriving just after it turns from yellow to red. Jay started laughing at me too. "yes....laugh, please. I love it when you laugh at how unbelievebly retarded this is."
*sigh* ok, glad i got that off my chest.

....contimplated on buying the book "five people you meet in heaven" but then didn't.......kinda wish i did now.....

2006-03-12T09:40:00.000-08:00

eeee!!!
im playing piano for worship tonite at westide kings
im nervous excited!!!
its bin so long since ive been part of a worship team
this is good
shannon

all we have is today........until tomarrow

2006-03-08T17:39:00.000-08:00

im totally having a good cry right now. Theres no sad connotation with it either. Im actually quite happy. Oh look, now im having a laugh cry. haha. *cry cry*. I haven't done that since I first watched Little Women. Im going to go play girl talk now whilst I calm my emotions with chocolate.

Girl Talk
What sort of character from a book/movie would you want to be and why?
OH OH!!! Aaron from the book Adventures in Legoland so I could ride a lego pony

this is why strongbad is so amazing

2006-02-27T23:53:00.000-08:00

"marzipan...look.
this is goatface
i have a goat for a face
like, not just I have a goats head...for a face
or that my head is a goats head...
Like...my face, is an ENTIRE goat.
So anyways i was calling you up because i wanted to join your goatface club.
Since you got quite a goatface yourself, i figured you'd be the go to guy....or gal
its hard to tell with that goatface of yours.
anyway, my number is "eeeawww", so give me a call back so we can compare goatfaces.
so i can't imagine that yours..your is pre...your ugly...marzipan, this is Strongbad and your ugly."

2006-02-25T06:49:00.000-08:00

you know whats lame?
trying to leave to Nakiska for a day of snowboarding but your car doors are frozen shut and your parents blazer won't start, and Jasons trying to come over and boost it but HIS car doors are frozen shut too.....

I JUST WANT TO GO TO THE HILLL!!!!!!!!!!!

*grumbles*

we have to train her not to sniff the cactuses

2006-02-22T21:52:00.000-08:00

Ya. it was my first ever live NHL game. and it was glorious.
and i think jay's dad was trying to get me drunk....

the "dome beer".....yes, the rumors are true. It makes bingo exciting! "what did they say? B15?!!! DID THEY SAY B15?!!"

sooo close!! in these pictures, i like to play a fun game called "spot the iggy"

"jerome iginla, where is he?....i dunno, i dunno"

you can say it...."A" freakin "dorable"

flush

2006-02-19T22:59:00.000-08:00

you all want to know what i did today

i got food poisening....thats right....food poisening.
Finished off half a bottle of pepto bismal and the remains of my peppermint tums. Ashleys mom even came by to give me gravol and gingerale. It was murder. Did you know that gingerale can get stains out of carpet? Its become my new windex.
Anyways, im still feeling queezy. Even the sight of food on commercials makes me want to puke. And trust me, I've done my fair share of that already today....I hate it. It makes me cry.....
So i really pray that I can recover from this soon. I enjoy recieving get well cards too, like this one from carina:

"I am sorry you are sick
but you are still one hot chick

Snowboarding can wait
health must not be late!

You lay in bed, get some sleep
Jay will watch you cause hes a creep

maybe he will sing you a tune
GET BETTER SOON!

Food poisoning can kiss my ass!!

-God be with you my dear child"

nanananananana.......batman!!!

2006-02-17T17:45:00.000-08:00

and so the search begins....
As most of you know, our beautiful duplex is now up for rent. So much has transpired here over the last few months. Never have I been exposed to so much wedding paraphenalia.....and no it is not mine. But, I may or may not have found the wedding dress of my dreams. Off white/color trimming has become the newest trend in wedding dress attire. Have we become less pure? ;) All i know is my bridesmaids will be wearing seafoam green.....with extra ruffles....haha. and now you all are wondering..."is she joking?"
So now im spending my 5 days off, packing up my room. Me and Jay sorted through alot of my junk, and came to the conclusion that I am a pack rat. I have animal faced paper plates and a tangerine colored fork in my closet........a tangerine colored fork!! The wierdest thing about it is I don't ever recall recieving a tangerine fork. Which would mean that I stole it from someone thinking it looked... neat?. Am i really this sad.....
Fortunatly, this entire weekend won't involve me packing my life away in boxes. Snowboarding at Lake Louise on Sunday. Don't worry, I shall thank God for the mountains and snow.....and snowy moutains. Speaking of being a heathen, Ive begun to realize what I've been missing out here in calgary. JAM sessions, or GOD ROCK if you will. So to remedy this, Ive decided to branch out and get involved in worship ministry. After talking to Jason Brasou, its looking good for me to play sunday nights at westside kings. They have a worship meeting on sunday nights, so hopefully then we can get the ball rolling. Ahhh!!! me so psyched. I love Jesus!!

And this...this just made me laugh a little when i read it
"I think a good novel would be where a bunch of men on a ship are looking for a whale. They look and look, but you know what? They never find him. And you know why they never find him? It doesn't say. The book leaves it up to you, the reader, to decide. Then, at the very end, there's a page you can lick and it tastes like Koolaid"

*laughs a little*

oh, and...ok, this just needs to be shared. It has to do with a dream i had. And please don't try to decipher a meaning for it......because im not to sure if I really want to know...
So im back at my farmhouse, which had an immaculant yard covered in trees, it was quite beautiful really, when i look up and see a huge swarm of seagulls above me. You know, like during the summer when they fly around aimlessly in a huge group, kinda reminds me of that old horror movie "birds". Now times that by 50, and thats how many birds were swarming above me. So of course, im all panicy and start running underneath the trees for cover from the excretions. But somehow, I was still getting crapped on, through the thick bush. Laugh all you want......but i consider this a nightmare....

2006-02-13T13:36:00.000-08:00

ive lost all my work....AGAIN!!!!
everytime I go to save my work........gone.
im so choked
can somebody please tell me why im in this program again?
all I want to be is a piano teacher anyway
way less stressful
-i can hold little recitals and preform duets with the young beginners
-teach them there first piano piece and see how excited they are to show their parents
-seeing them sit outside the piano room waiting for their turn to come in and be all "hello miss sorgard"
-getting little gifts from the parents during the holidays
-i get paid well for my passion!!
-did i mention its way less stressful

sigh....i should finish my brochure

gum-a-war

2006-02-06T21:15:00.000-08:00

.....eww, sick. theres...gross...theres a piece of chewed up gum beside my keyboard......i mean really, is that....is that really necessary? hmmm?.....chewed up gum beside my keyboard?.....at least stick it underneath the desk like everyone else......i mean im glad you didn't but really.....its just.....there......im not blind you know......thats just wrong.....like twirling gum between your fingers wrong..... Why!...why do you do it? .....you think its funny? Do you write your own material? Do you?........because thats so fresh...

....chewed up gum.....beside my keyboard........i might kill you tonite...

current mood:

aka. Little Miss PMS

ma ma ma mooo cow

2006-01-31T00:03:00.000-08:00

The perfect kodak moment presented itself this past weekend while I was in Picture Butte. I was taking my dog Sam out on a leisurly stroll down my parents road, (my dog it a cock-a-poo....his looks are as silly as the name sounds), and there was a pasture full of cattle on the left side. My dog, who is "afraid of a ball rolling at him", feels that these massive beasts are no match for his peuny yet cocky demeanor. So he bolts.....out into the poo infested field chasing these 1200lb brainless cows who could kill Sam in one swift kick. I call out at him in a feeble attempt to send him back to the road without me having to chase after him......ha! Im definitly not impressed at this point. Its 7:30 in the morning, and was not prepared to chase my dog in a pasture full of cows. But thats exactly what i did. Picture this. A massive herd of cows running from this sad excuse of a dog while im chasing the dog in my scrubs thinking "what the frig do they put in those kibbles"

son of a bee-sting

2006-01-26T23:46:00.000-08:00

Why is it, when i manage to muster up all my "hand me down" clothes into 4 HUGE garbage bags, I still have an obscenely full closet? And i still complain that i have no clothes. figures...
I need to spend a summer living on an african tribe eating bugs for protien and wearing nothing but loose animal skin. *grrr* But thats just some vicarious-living/wishful-thinking on my part.

I've been struggling lately on finding a meaningful job. I just don't want to have some pointless "teener job" to add to my already littered retail resume. Been looking at Friesens Publishing, seeing as thats the direction I wish to explore. However more experience/education in needed. Its a vicious cycle. Either more education is needed, or more experience. At least for the jobs you want. I won't admit defeat yet, my search will continue. However, i may need to embrace the fact that chasing my dreams will ultimately require some level of peronal sacrifice. Time is such a precious commodity. Especially if it requires another 2 years of education. pfff....what does a bachelor's in anything get you. oh wait, more money. damn.

My newly inherited mini fridge is making weird noises....."Loud noises!!"

Lethbridge awaits....

hockey star

2006-01-22T00:12:00.000-08:00

This weekend has been soooo much fun. It all started with a good nite of live hockey, hot iginla (sorry jay), humping kippersoff stretches (scandelous), and good ol' canadian beer. I swear the beer at the saddledome is "spiked", because i was feelin it after 1. And yes, i may be petite, but i can usually hold my own.
So it was my first ever live hockey game, unless you consider watching the Lethbridge Hurricanes in grade 5 a game......i don't. And it was glorious. I felt so canadian, sporting an old school hockey jersey, beer in hand, and screaming for a fight!!! My comments drew a few laughs from the people in front of me. Don't worry, they were laughing with me.....at least thats what i like to tell myself. :) I can be quite entertaining. Don't even ask me what i was saying, because i really don't remember. It was all such a blur..........i blame the spiked beer. But apparently i do Jay proud. I was almost disappointed when my fight didn't occur until, in the last 16 seconds of the game, one sparked. Sure it was nothing special, but it was a fight nonetheless. I was so proud....sniff. "Good job Lombardi....GOOD JOB!!!" what a guy.

pictures will be posted

So, as most of you know, I am undoubtedly, the most skilled female in the rhelm of video games. Ya'll know its true. Don't even try me at Halo unless you want me to put you in your place. Anyways, thats neither here nor there. My new game of choice has become donkey kong bongos. And mike, i believe i can give you a run for your money now. I can lay down the beats like no other. Ask jay....he has yet to beat me. :)
I should have become a drummer.

Went skating at this private lake behind Kevins house. I say private because only people who live in these incredibly massive and gorgeous houses have access to it. It was awesome. Although the highlight of that nite had to be Carina Wiens and her "attempt" to skate. Friggin hilarous. That girl cracks me up.

I love Westside Kings. Such a great church. I used to be accustomed to attending the morning services, until tonite. My plans may change now. The evening service was aweome. Jason Brazou has such a phenomenal voice. And i met up with some ol friends who i haven't hung out with in a long time. Too long in fact. Went to their 'used to be general store' house and smoked some sheesha (courtesy of Susan). Im excited for the poker nite Jae. Thanks for letting us come over and steal your food.
And here are those photos that i spoke of. You can thank me later.

Craig Spratt's birthday
The birthday boy

The Jae

the cake of all cakes (me and izzy made it)

yes, it is checkered

me and izzy bought him lego

2006-01-19T16:32:00.000-08:00

ok
the nerd queen picture will be back......due to popular demand.

A Sucker for Piano

2006-01-18T18:24:00.000-08:00

Oh. Guess whose going to a Flames game on Saturday at the Saddledome? THIS GIRL. I need to stock up of flames paraphanalia.
IM SO EXCITED!!!!!
hockey hockey hockey hockey

shannon

a ghost in my midst

2006-01-12T10:43:00.000-08:00

ok. this has been the second night in a row where i have woken up to strange happenings.
Im usually in a deep sleep, when i wake up to this loud crashing, like books and cd cases falling off the shelf. And it would be easy to presume that my sub-concious state has created this "alarm clock" at 2:30 in the morning, but its just all to real. I am awake when i still hear it falling to the ground. I reach across my bed and start feeling the floor around me, and nothing. No books, no cds. So i get up, turn on the light, and look to where i heard the loud crashing, and eerily everything is still in its proper place on the shelf. So if this happens again tomarrow, I plan on rectifying the situation by springing to the light switch while i still hear everything crashing to the floor, exposing the culprit.......or realizing quickly that im starting to lose my mind....

learn to live in the present

2006-01-11T14:37:00.000-08:00

God has given us eternal perpective so that we can look beyond the routines of life. Understanding, however, that God has not revealed to us, all of lifes mysteries. My life's bout of spiritual immaturity has hindered me from venturing past my comfort zone. To long have I been like those 40 year old men who have formed perfect butt grooves on there couches, indulging in that nasty trio: profanity, beer, and hockey.
I need to inherit the wonder and adventure of a child, setting aside worldy prudence and hard skeptisism which we so often pride ourselves on. And as willful as this may be, it can turn your vunerable heart to a humble heart.
Everyone has that instictive feeling telling them that something isn't right. For me, fear of the unknown has always provailed, and my inner feelings are left ignored.

I realize, as i grow older, the significance of living from my heart.

i found him!!

2006-01-05T09:18:00.000-08:00

here he is folks......my next purchase

this bearded dragon needs a name......any ideas?

Life falls apart and i build it back up

2006-01-04T19:56:00.000-08:00

Sunshine was refreshing. Looking across the country from the top of the mountain is humbling. A small speck in the scheme of thing.....but a significant one nonetheless :). And it was peaceful until a small kid snowplowed into me. But hey, we've all been there.

Im seriously considering purchasing a lizard for days like today when i crave companionship. Jen's I-Pup is cute for the first 5 minutes until you realize that you are talking to a robot. You start petting it, and he whimpers, and you feed it "music", and it dances, and then you accidently push the off switch, and.... I feel like im a vet putting a dog down. I need something that lives off of oxygen instead of double A batteries. Oh well, I am a simpleton. Off to the next best thing....Logic problems. My desire for solving logic problems have officially been quelled since recieving "101 Logic Problems and Puzzles" from my mom for christmas. Laugh all you want, but my brain is high and I like it.

My sister left back to Vancouver. I'm worse at goodbyes than i am at navigating. I either detach myself from the reality of it and don't conjure up a meaningful statement, or I turn into a complete sissy and bawl my eyes out, cheapening the poignancy of the moment. I think I should practice being cooler. But it was fun. Sprinkled cupcakes and all. I can't wait for next years gingerbread home-makeovers and Moonlight sonata interprative dances.

I'm in a weird state of excited exhaustion. Tea or hot chocolate......hot chocolate it is. And just like it says on the tin "it's a warm hug on a cold day".

shannon

The easiest thing to do isn't always right, and the right thing isn't always the easiest. As much as certain things cause strain to my heart, there are a million reasons why I am loving life, and I cannot forgot that.

thank you budda

2006-01-01T21:51:00.000-08:00

I can officially pencil in this past week as one of the most odd, fun, and unpredictable. I wish holidays came more than once a year. Time spent with family and friends is so wildly empowering and rejuvinating for the soul. Remind me to come home more often. I warn you now, this post may come across as a cheesy vent sesh, but im a typical girl who enjoys indulging in a cliche. Low rated chick flicks, sappy music, hot baths, and stinky candles are amongst my guilty pleasures.
Tonite was an awesome night to start off the new year. It was one of those evenings when the sky is alive with shifting color, like a painting in progress, and the air cools with the promise of night. You know that fresh spring rain smell? everything just feels so renewed... I told you i was going to be cheesy. :)
As far as my new years resolutions are concerned....well, I only have one, but its a challenging one. It actually came to me at a chinese food resaurant....in a fortune cookie. I tell you, I was meant to eat chow mein that day because contrary to the promises of good fortune and budding relationships like most fortune cookies disperse....mine had a real meaning. "one of the hardest things to do in life, is remembering to enjoy it". I can vouch for that. Our lives are filled with challenges and heartache. Its a strange thing. When it first hits, you swear you'll never recover. But your lungs keep filling, and your heart keeps beating, and the world around you doesn't stop even if you want it too. So enjoy life, and thank God for it. Friends, hold me accountable to this, I have invested too much time pondering on the hypothetical. I need to enjoy whats real.
Anways, its been a while since my last post, and so much has come to pass since then. Theres no chance that I can fit it all in while maintaining your attention. Ill just tell you that it was incredible. Ill have to post up pictures, for they say a thousand words and a few laughs.
Oh, and funny story. Kristy and I hit a checkstop new years eve and the police were doing thorough checks of each vehicle. Me and my sister are the perfect "getaway with anything because were babes" combo. In the past we have recieved free brake light installation, discounts on oil changes, and that night, a quick weave around all the vehicles waiting to get their cars inspected. The best part was my sister holding up a plate of rainbow sprinkled cupcakes at the officer while i wore pigtails and a smile. no guy can resist :)
ok. so pictures up in a giffy. Im going in the hot tub.

samsicle

2005-12-24T09:26:00.000-08:00

my sister is home!! this calls for a toast....with orange juice because its 10:30am. here here! Already my mischievous plans are underway. Kinda a deep routed tradition between her and I. Cyclops woody* will have to make an appearence by her bed this christmas eve....eh stinkface?!!
my new moccasins are heavenly....courtesy of Jason Weins. thank you!! And I now officially have a "grand piano fund" in the works. First installment provided by, again, Jay-z. What a guy.
Tonight is $15 gift exchange nite with the extended family. I plan on choosing my own gift, a pocket yatzee. What can i say, im an easy girl to please. And I wouldn't be surprised if my dad makes me serenade everyone on the piano all nite. "Christmas time is here" has become his new favorite christmas song. I wake up and its like "Shannon, come play the piano" and he places Charlie brown in front of me. hehe. I love my dad.
My house is so festive right now, I love it. All poinsettas and garland, and it smells like vanilla. As well as Diana Krall's christmas serenading us in the background. The wrapping paper scattered across the floor adds a nice touch too. Now all thats missing is the snow!!! I never thought i would hear myself say this...but I wish it would snow. Its not christmas without it. oh well. It probably wouldn't help my cold right now anyways. My nights have involved Vics Vapour rub, buckleys, fisherman friends, kleenex, and an old humidifyer. Merry Christmas to me!!
Im excited for the new year. Snowboarding in Nakiska on the 3rd....who wants to join me?
shannon

*a piece of obscure driftwood that looks remarkably like Mike Wazowski from Monsters Incorperated.

school drama

2005-12-22T23:55:00.000-08:00

sometimes I wish my past could hold more credibility. Mostly in regards to school. Not to demean my highschool's academic caliber, but Picture Butte isn't your elite, highly populated city, littered with big names and big faces. In fact, i wouldn't even be surprised if it's location was excluded on a map of southern alberta's backroads. Its probably catagorized under "dung-heap boonieland" with a used car dealership as its main attraction. Regardless of how good my marks may have been, Harvard would laugh in my face and probably tell me to work as a journalist for "farm show magazine". I need to become friends with "the richies" and have them throw in some extra incentive. *sigh* i will accept my fate as small town girl with high expectations.
how i hate settling my goals.....
at least i have a life that would make for a great shakespear play. minus the cryptic suicide and dysfunctional families....

shansicle...shannonator...shansta...shanabanana...shanahan

2005-12-22T01:08:00.000-08:00

every adult love stop store is accompanied by a Mr. Lube
coincidence? i think not

my sister comes home soon. yay, i can now start taking part in all that cliche girl stuff like pointing out favorite rooms in a home decor cataloge, or eating nutella with a spoon. however, i am invoked to maid status until christmas arrives, so my social life is put on hold. so much to do, so little time....i need to start using postage notes to organize my life. mostly in hopes that once the glue wears off and the note falls away into oblivion the task will no longer be needed. this is how my mind works.

i can't wait for new years. drunken blabber is inevitable, and im prepared for conversations of world domination, bashing tree-huggers, naming children after weather events, dreams of being assaulted by a gang of grannies, or building UFO landing zones in the neighbor's yard....the list continues. This is why its so hard to prevoke drunkeness sometimes. im such a selfish sober

head west, take a right at the haystacks, and follow the cows

2005-12-20T16:06:00.000-08:00

Its been an optimistic week for me. God-given ambition if you will. I've been rather contemplative lately seeing my life stuck in a good stagnant. However, I need to be able to reconcile taking risks while maintaining what's stable around me. I have a faith bound with Gods love, compassionate, beautiful friends, a family I adore, plus my youth and health. It seems selfish to me to feel unaccomplished when I have so much going for me. Plant what God gives you, nourish it, and watch it grow.

Being home has been strangely insightful for me. I've come to the understanding that I'm one of those people that's huge on association and maintaining personal bonds with people. Strictly speaking, one cannot live a life of seclusion in regards to dating relationships. Cutting off all ties to friends is like a dead end street. You get stuck in an unhealthy groove. I apologize to all of those whom I have dismissed in the past because of relationships. I assure you it was not my intent, but life has a funny way of showing you reality. A countless reminder on what NOT to do to be free of both regret and bitterness.

Anyways, aside from my rountine ramblings, Picture Butte (aka. pic_ur_ Butt_) has been great. Took part in my home church's annual Christmas concert. I realized when my mom wanted me to be home "so early" that there were strings attached. Oh well, I thoroughly enjoyed being the ticketmaster and the "Where is Mary and Joseph" coordinator. Trying to get Joseph to stop picking his nose was a challenge. but all in all, the concert turned out to be a great success.

Paid off my tuition today. although thanks to a few helpful scholarships, this last bite of my savings isn't that bad. It pays to be brilliant. :) Although theres something strange about the fact that i get excited over science, math, and english. How many people do you know that do logic problems for fun, or want to sleep with a humidifier, or avidly read their University Philosphy and Psychology books?
I think i should work for NASA.

im turning into a flake

2005-12-17T19:40:00.000-08:00

watch! all those whose deprived minds have not yet been blessed with this magical disney bliss!

and a new discovery. remote control mario cart racers....

bring it on italiano

you never cry alone

2005-12-15T11:33:00.000-08:00

Job 10:1 - "I am disgusted with my life. Let me complain freely. I will speak in the bitterness of my soul."
When we face battling affliction, the natural response is to feel sorry for ourselves. Pain pushes us towards self-pity. I feel like a huge unjustice has been brought down upon me, and the jury is blind and the accuser is oblivious. Guilt has hindered me, but anger has brought down the gavel.
Life's trials, whether allowed by God or sent by God, can help us grow and set us free. I need to face difficult situations asking God "what can I learn and how can I grow?" rather than "Who did this to me, and how can I get rid of it". It seems that why is a question we are free to ask, but God is not bound to answer.

Im feeling so good right now. I know God isn't a cosmic killjoy, he plans ever trial that comes in our way. God knows, God sees, and God cares.
So when your hurt, remember: you never cry alone.

snow falls

2005-12-13T13:32:00.000-08:00

yes everyone, i have returned with a new look and a boosted ego. :) I may not be punctual, but patience is a virtue, and i believe in this case, it paid off. Funny how such a simple thing like searching for your inner geek can leave one with a personal "high". i really need to become more ambitious. my mom and I figured I could try and sleep my way to success should I turn out to be a talentless wank. ;)

I know that you need to dig deep to find that personal niche that really makes you tick. but i find im never satisfied with what im given. I guess its just my overwelming desire to push my limits, and strive for the best. maybe im to rash, but i just don't want to enter the real world unjaded. I suck at handling failure, which is something i need to work on. It's not the greatest feeling to know that you are, unequovically, the key catalyst in your own personal fight for purpose.

anyways, I don't to dwell on life's adversity for this whole ramble. instead, lets bust out some of the major life changing experiences of 2005 shall we?

twas a good year
-becoming friends with some of the most wonderful people on the planet :)
-16 hours of gilmore girls
-Experiencing the glory of OnStar.
-reprocussions of waking up from REM sleep
-learning how to fix a toilet...the hard way
-my macdaddy
-past relationships
-and my first sip of a chai tea latte

next year my plans are as follows:
-creating greeting cards
-hosting a space themed party with lots of aluminum foil and food and people in saran wrap.
-a road trip to new york
-begin writing a novel
-purchasing a lizard and naming him eggo (just for you ashley)
-and yell at a fainting goat

im such a walking contradiction. The simplest things satisfy me, yet i live a life of complexity. what gives

shannon