Sunday, July 30, 2006
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
oreo cookies
i made them tonite
and you know what else
there awesome!!!!
which leads to only one thing
me....
being awesome
but thats obvious
tell you what
ill keep a few around
.....cookies that is
(the awesome cookies
that I made
because im awesome)
just for you
to arouse your tastebuds.
whats that?
IM BIGHEADED?!!!!!
thats it!!!
NO COOKIE FOR YOU!!!!
HA!
theres no talking yourself out of this one now
im on to your shinanigins
I already ate them all anyways
what?!!! now your calling me FAT?!!!!!
eat this !%^&*#
(stay tuned)
and you know what else
there awesome!!!!
which leads to only one thing
me....
being awesome
but thats obvious
tell you what
ill keep a few around
.....cookies that is
(the awesome cookies
that I made
because im awesome)
just for you
to arouse your tastebuds.
whats that?
IM BIGHEADED?!!!!!
thats it!!!
NO COOKIE FOR YOU!!!!
HA!
theres no talking yourself out of this one now
im on to your shinanigins
I already ate them all anyways
what?!!! now your calling me FAT?!!!!!
eat this !%^&*#
(stay tuned)
Sunday, July 23, 2006
whoa.....thats deep
Intentional indifference....a viscious cycle of success succombing to curioiusity. I've got a good job, a great job in fact. Why then, would I start clouding my mind with thoughts of extreme change so prematurely? And now an even bigger question....why won't i let it? Security, thats why. I love how William Shedd puts it. "A ship is safe in harbor, but that’s not what ships are for. " I remember when i was little, being absolutely terrified of the dark. I always found it mind-boggling how a cute little teddy bear can morph into a gargantuent, teeth-baring, beast. But no matter how scared i would get, there was something about hiding underneath my blankets that made everything safe. Cause really, what fearism creature would DARE pull back the covers....
Thats how I often feel now. Secure in my safe haven, underneath my blankets. Overtime it becomes intoxicating, and im left feeling uncomfortable and alone. All i have to do is pull back the covers and take in a deep breath of new fresh air. But why is this such a difficult thing to do? Seeing the situation, in every sense of it, it seems silly not to pull back the covers. But then, if you do, your left staring into a dark abiss, almost more terrifying than exciting.
You can call me a wimp. But i like to think of myself as a risk taker. I've done my fair share of spontaneous leaps of faith. But there are times when i seriously have to question my motives. Is there such a thing as the right time when it come to indecisive career planning? And where do you draw the line between selfish and selfless ambition, when material gain holds no merit? I understand how small of a pothole this is in my life, but i really don't want to get stuck in it. Do i go along for the ride, which is working for me right now, or do i get off and go thrill seeking? Now im getting carried away in metaphors, and probably making little or no sense at all. And being undeniably cheesy in every way, i know. But when i get down to the bare essentials, its a habit.
Perhaps this is a selfish persuit of something non-existant. Like high school relationships. The first boy you ever date always seems to be a great one. Perfect in every way. But you haven't experienced anything different. Maybe what you think is great for you now is merely scraping the surface of what greatness really is. Then you dump him, date another guy, and realize that the first was so much better. Like the "the grass is greener on the other side" syndrome. I always figured this statement to be selfish.....until it applies to you. And now it would seem im a hypocrite.
Don't jump to conclusions now, my discrepincy is not rooted in relationships. Im quite twitterpaited over my man Jay.
I just feel that life is all about searching for purpose. And just when we find it, when we utilize it for all its worth, it keeps going, its annoying that way, and quite often a tiresome persuit of fufillment. (I want to use the word fullfillment lightly because many aspects of life can account for such a thing). The truth is, we will always persue purpose. It can take on many forms. And its great when we attain it, and use it the way God intended. But wait, im not done with you yet. Get out of your comfort zone.....because i've got something else up my sleeve.
Just like hide and seek. You search everywhere for your goal, to find what you seek. And once you find it, you feel so accomplished. Until the game starts again. And now im back to where i started
counting
1....2.....3......4....
Thats how I often feel now. Secure in my safe haven, underneath my blankets. Overtime it becomes intoxicating, and im left feeling uncomfortable and alone. All i have to do is pull back the covers and take in a deep breath of new fresh air. But why is this such a difficult thing to do? Seeing the situation, in every sense of it, it seems silly not to pull back the covers. But then, if you do, your left staring into a dark abiss, almost more terrifying than exciting.
You can call me a wimp. But i like to think of myself as a risk taker. I've done my fair share of spontaneous leaps of faith. But there are times when i seriously have to question my motives. Is there such a thing as the right time when it come to indecisive career planning? And where do you draw the line between selfish and selfless ambition, when material gain holds no merit? I understand how small of a pothole this is in my life, but i really don't want to get stuck in it. Do i go along for the ride, which is working for me right now, or do i get off and go thrill seeking? Now im getting carried away in metaphors, and probably making little or no sense at all. And being undeniably cheesy in every way, i know. But when i get down to the bare essentials, its a habit.
Perhaps this is a selfish persuit of something non-existant. Like high school relationships. The first boy you ever date always seems to be a great one. Perfect in every way. But you haven't experienced anything different. Maybe what you think is great for you now is merely scraping the surface of what greatness really is. Then you dump him, date another guy, and realize that the first was so much better. Like the "the grass is greener on the other side" syndrome. I always figured this statement to be selfish.....until it applies to you. And now it would seem im a hypocrite.
Don't jump to conclusions now, my discrepincy is not rooted in relationships. Im quite twitterpaited over my man Jay.
I just feel that life is all about searching for purpose. And just when we find it, when we utilize it for all its worth, it keeps going, its annoying that way, and quite often a tiresome persuit of fufillment. (I want to use the word fullfillment lightly because many aspects of life can account for such a thing). The truth is, we will always persue purpose. It can take on many forms. And its great when we attain it, and use it the way God intended. But wait, im not done with you yet. Get out of your comfort zone.....because i've got something else up my sleeve.
Just like hide and seek. You search everywhere for your goal, to find what you seek. And once you find it, you feel so accomplished. Until the game starts again. And now im back to where i started
counting
1....2.....3......4....
Friday, July 07, 2006
more vancouver ferry pics
i don't think there was one picture of me NOT laughing
yay independant Canada!!
Thursday, July 06, 2006
so i heard the storm warnings
wasnt totally sure what to expect
but hey
I have an umbrella, that will suffice
.....
ERR WRONG!!!!!
now i wasn't sure what was worse, walking through massive streams of water that splashed up dirt whenever cars drove by, or being belted with marble sized hail. (my umbrella tore after 10 minutes)
that umbrella was brand new too......
my feet hurt (never run in cowboy boots)
wasnt totally sure what to expect
but hey
I have an umbrella, that will suffice
.....
ERR WRONG!!!!!
now i wasn't sure what was worse, walking through massive streams of water that splashed up dirt whenever cars drove by, or being belted with marble sized hail. (my umbrella tore after 10 minutes)
that umbrella was brand new too......
my feet hurt (never run in cowboy boots)
Monday, July 03, 2006
the predatory wasp of the Palisades is out to get us!!
update
does anybody want to watch "Whats Eating Gilbert Grape" with me tonite? I have tostitos :)
Listen.
hear that?
that is the sound of nothing. My roomate and boyfriend have gone hiatus, and besides the relentless sun blistering my skin, im all alone with the humming of our gargantuant fan. I may be making it out to be more pathetic than it actually is, seeing as I spent my long weekend in VANCOUVER partying on a ferry!! That is a hard act to follow. But I'm afraid to say that I thoroughly enjoyed my time spent in that vegetated wonderland, with its half-million dollar condos and over-the-top transvestites. I say afraid because my mind has started to sway towards settling in that city by the ocean. I used to think my devotion to calgary was not easily moved, but after seeing the excitment in Jason's eyes when we first spoke of settling there, made me change my mind. It's entire atmosphere is what feels like home to me. Im an artsy fart, classical music buff, and the opportunities for me to persue design on the coast is endless. And Jason's a born-and-raised BC boy, although after spending most of his life in Hickville, that perception of him has probably changed. A few of you are probably excited at the thought....Mike & Ashley or Kristy & Ryan....but don't think I haven't thought about those of you who would still be back at home......Ashley & Kevin, Lisa & Chris, Jason & Erin (although you two are determined to make root in Lethbridge). So im left to ponder, with my fan-a-blazin, and the sun-a-bakin, typing away the time tell I fall asleep and ready myself for another work week. I expect another sleepless night, at least there's no crows nest outside my window.....
a bunch of asian ladies had a crush on jason while we were on the ferry, so they all took pictures of him. I thought it was great seeing jay blush. Here is one with both of us.
does anybody want to watch "Whats Eating Gilbert Grape" with me tonite? I have tostitos :)
Listen.
hear that?
that is the sound of nothing. My roomate and boyfriend have gone hiatus, and besides the relentless sun blistering my skin, im all alone with the humming of our gargantuant fan. I may be making it out to be more pathetic than it actually is, seeing as I spent my long weekend in VANCOUVER partying on a ferry!! That is a hard act to follow. But I'm afraid to say that I thoroughly enjoyed my time spent in that vegetated wonderland, with its half-million dollar condos and over-the-top transvestites. I say afraid because my mind has started to sway towards settling in that city by the ocean. I used to think my devotion to calgary was not easily moved, but after seeing the excitment in Jason's eyes when we first spoke of settling there, made me change my mind. It's entire atmosphere is what feels like home to me. Im an artsy fart, classical music buff, and the opportunities for me to persue design on the coast is endless. And Jason's a born-and-raised BC boy, although after spending most of his life in Hickville, that perception of him has probably changed. A few of you are probably excited at the thought....Mike & Ashley or Kristy & Ryan....but don't think I haven't thought about those of you who would still be back at home......Ashley & Kevin, Lisa & Chris, Jason & Erin (although you two are determined to make root in Lethbridge). So im left to ponder, with my fan-a-blazin, and the sun-a-bakin, typing away the time tell I fall asleep and ready myself for another work week. I expect another sleepless night, at least there's no crows nest outside my window.....
a bunch of asian ladies had a crush on jason while we were on the ferry, so they all took pictures of him. I thought it was great seeing jay blush. Here is one with both of us.
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